Realities of Life

I know that people go through things in life they wouldn't expect. But, you'll never expect something dramatic to happen to you. I guess it's just not reality to you. Going through trials and tribulations, ups and downs, happy and sad moments of life are difficult to deal with at times and of course encouraging when its convenient to you. I'm saying these things because I sometimes take life for granted. I know many people who are going through things I've never thought of dealing with. Now, karma has turned on me. I am sad, depressed, upset, and confused. But, who am I to question God for what's happening to me at this moment of my life. The reality is that God has a plan and purpose for me that I won't always understand. I've learned to accept and move forward with His plans. What about you?

Interesting Question

Does euphonious remind you of an attachment?

A fever takes over!!

OMG!!! What a day I've had... Or maybe I should say, what a night I've had after my first day of work. Everything went downhill when my son started crying like something was hurting him and he started breathing heavily. At this point, I knew that something wasn't right because he wasn't laughing anymore and playing anymore. So, I checked his temperature and it immediately shot up to 101.9 degrees. This really scared me because he has never been sick like this and I didn't understand where it all came from. Then it dawned on me that he has 4 teeth coming down from the top and they haven't came all the way down... So, of course, I gave him some pain & fever medicine that his pediatrician prescribed to him and took all of his clothes off. He fell asleep after awhile and everything was peaceful until 2am... He woke up crying and extremely hot again, so I took his temperature and it was 102 degrees. I called the emergency hotline and they went through these ridiculous steps to really see if he's sick. I was very irritated because he was irritated and all I wanted is for them to tell me the quickest way of getting his temp back to normal. They advised me to give him more pain & fever medicine and keep minimum clothing on him. So, I did what the nurse advised me to do and he started playing and laughing again after an hour. He ate again and went back to sleep. I was completely out of it so when I felt that he was okay, then I decided to get some rest. 7:20am... I hear him crying again and this time I knew that I would have to take him to the emergency room because he had a high fever again. I took him to the emergency and arrived around 8:45am and the nurse immediately took all of his clothes off to weigh him and get his temperature. His temperature had gone down  to 100.8 degrees but they decided that they wanted to check him to make sure he was doing okay. Of course, they asked me a thousand questions but I was more content because I knew that I would get my answer. I was in the hospital for 2 hours all together and they ended up telling me that he only has a cold. The doctor told me to give him Motrin and not to worry about anything because he's just fine. He's been just fine ever since I left the hospital. But, now that he's fine, I am extremely tired from worrying all night if he will get better or not. I got some rest immediately after he fell asleep again and now I am ready for anything again... This situation has taught me a lesson to respond quickly but responsibly and not to panic but to be calm.

Orientation

Today was a lovely day at work... Orientation... It makes me feel like I have accomplished a goal today. The weight has been lifted off my shoulders knowing that I have something to fall back on. It's been way too long since I've had a job... It took me about 2 to 3 months to finally land a job that will keep me at ease. Even though, it's part-time, a J-O-B is a J-O-B and I am blessed to have one. But, the only thing that bothers me is filling out paperwork and the excessive reading that comes with it. Either way it goes, I'm still one happy person and I am willing to do ANYTHING that will get me a paycheck... Of course, the legal way of doing it... Lol.. I am ready for this journey that is ahead of me and the many memories to come...

Inside Thoughts

I always think to myself if I ever deserve to be treated a certain way. Do I deserve to be talked too any kind of way? I am all these great things but yet I feel like I'm not. I feel like a failure every time I don't make sense or say something that's dumb(in your eyes). If you feel these things about me then why bring me down. I hate the way you talk to me at times. It's like my feelings are non existent to you. As your one and only woman, I should not feel this way. Something has to change soon. I want and deserve to feel like the Queen you treated me as in the beginning of our relationship. Lately, I've felt empty and lonely because there is no communication anymore. I want to laugh, smile, and just joke with each other again. All of the negativity has to leave now because we still have a child to care for. He deserves two parents who are level-headed with each other. I'm done thinking about the past. Now it's time to move forward to OUR FUTURE.